Okay, that's it. I need to write all of these now or else i'll burst into tears. Tears which I will never let cascade on the damned floor. Tears I will try to hide until it shows itself with great anxiety.

Someone's going to take a peek at this house because gramma is selling it for 20 million. And this is what I'm scared of the most. Because by then, if.. God won't forbid, the canvasser (that is what I'd like to call the person) likes our house and will buy it.. I'm going to say hello to Cebu. :(

It's not that I don't want to live in Cebu. C'mon... It is a very nice place. Nicer than Manila or Cavite. One of the most visited places in the Philippines. But.. I was raised here. My friends are here. It's just too hard to finally say goodbye. :( 2 more years of High school wouldn't hurt, right? Why can't they just understand my feelings... for a change? No. Mom and dad does. They've been always very supportive with whatever plans I have. But this is one big turning point because my grandmother will make the decision for me. And I know what it'll be.

I don't want to move to Cebu because I love my friends so much that even the thought of leaving them makes my heart ache. I don't want to be left out.. All those times I've spent in DLA were the most amazing, happiest times of my life. Then suddenly.. one decision will take it all away from me.

Believe me, I'm looking at the bright side even if I'm the biggest pessimistic whore you always encounter. I know that if ever we move.. They will enroll me to a great school, but I doubt if it's as great as DLA. Naah, wouldn't be. Impossible. But still!! I know that I'll meet new, and great friends there but it's just that... What about my old friends? Dad said that if they're really real friends, they'll find ways to connect with me. Because that's what friends do. But no. It's still isn't the same thing.

I never wished for this.. Never wished for anything because I know I'm going to miss it all. I'll miss everyone here. :(

There's no certainty about this, and that's the great thing. We're still not certain but it's a 50%. Yet I'm still holding on into this little grip of hope that everything will turn out fine and that we'll able to make ends meet.

Tsss. Not even close.


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Neeh. I wish.. everything will be fine like before. :(

-- when silence is torn, the night is broken.

Okay, that's it. I need to write all of these now or else i'll burst into tears. Tears which I will never let cascade on the damned floor. Tears I will try to hide until it shows itself with great anxiety.

Someone's going to take a peek at this house because gramma is selling it for 20 million. And this is what I'm scared of the most. Because by then, if.. God won't forbid, the canvasser (that is what I'd like to call the person) likes our house and will buy it.. I'm going to say hello to Cebu. :(

It's not that I don't want to live in Cebu. C'mon... It is a very nice place. Nicer than Manila or Cavite. One of the most visited places in the Philippines. But.. I was raised here. My friends are here. It's just too hard to finally say goodbye. :( 2 more years of High school wouldn't hurt, right? Why can't they just understand my feelings... for a change? No. Mom and dad does. They've been always very supportive with whatever plans I have. But this is one big turning point because my grandmother will make the decision for me. And I know what it'll be.

I don't want to move to Cebu because I love my friends so much that even the thought of leaving them makes my heart ache. I don't want to be left out.. All those times I've spent in DLA were the most amazing, happiest times of my life. Then suddenly.. one decision will take it all away from me.

Believe me, I'm looking at the bright side even if I'm the biggest pessimistic whore you always encounter. I know that if ever we move.. They will enroll me to a great school, but I doubt if it's as great as DLA. Naah, wouldn't be. Impossible. But still!! I know that I'll meet new, and great friends there but it's just that... What about my old friends? Dad said that if they're really real friends, they'll find ways to connect with me. Because that's what friends do. But no. It's still isn't the same thing.

I never wished for this.. Never wished for anything because I know I'm going to miss it all. I'll miss everyone here. :(

There's no certainty about this, and that's the great thing. We're still not certain but it's a 50%. Yet I'm still holding on into this little grip of hope that everything will turn out fine and that we'll able to make ends meet.

Tsss. Not even close.


--

Neeh. I wish.. everything will be fine like before. :(

-- when silence is torn, the night is broken.