Screwed, again.

I don't actually know where to start off right now. It feels weird. Chaotic.

I wanted this too. Because I know that if I do this, it would give me time to think, and thus.. It'll clear up my mind and it'll let me resist temptation. But I guess It's not working. Screwed. Damn.

I realized how much I love him, and that what I did had this really big effect on him. I know he resents the idea about the "cool off" thing, and that he's really going to wait for me, - us to be okay. But I don't know if i'm letting him wait in vain or not. Probably because first, I really need time to think, about this. I've been actually going nuts these past few days. It really feels unhealthy.

I just.. hate the fact that he feels lonely about it, i mean, yeaah that's just normal but I really wanna see him happy. I'm feeling guilty about this.

I never wanted to do this, but I guess this is what I really NEEDED. sometimes it feels good to finally unleash yourself and think about your priorities.

I need to study a lot now, i'm feeling so much pressure. and i also found out something about him, and he wasn't doing well, and i'm feeling guilty again.

It really takes time. :(

Screwed, again.

I don't actually know where to start off right now. It feels weird. Chaotic.

I wanted this too. Because I know that if I do this, it would give me time to think, and thus.. It'll clear up my mind and it'll let me resist temptation. But I guess It's not working. Screwed. Damn.

I realized how much I love him, and that what I did had this really big effect on him. I know he resents the idea about the "cool off" thing, and that he's really going to wait for me, - us to be okay. But I don't know if i'm letting him wait in vain or not. Probably because first, I really need time to think, about this. I've been actually going nuts these past few days. It really feels unhealthy.

I just.. hate the fact that he feels lonely about it, i mean, yeaah that's just normal but I really wanna see him happy. I'm feeling guilty about this.

I never wanted to do this, but I guess this is what I really NEEDED. sometimes it feels good to finally unleash yourself and think about your priorities.

I need to study a lot now, i'm feeling so much pressure. and i also found out something about him, and he wasn't doing well, and i'm feeling guilty again.

It really takes time. :(